When did it happen????

It happened while I was waiting for the bus today.I had trekked a mile and a half from my job to the beginning of the line because I wanted to be sure I got a seat. My ride home can be nearly two hours some days so the thought of not getting a seat is horrifying. The last two blocks are a steep uphill climb - pure torture.It was unbelievably hot and humid today - no breeze whatsoever.I do this nearly everyday so you'd think it would get easier - it doesn't.The bags I'm carrying weigh a ton.I stagger to the bus stop and nearly collapse on the hard brick stoop that really has no purpose other than to support hill warriors like myself.It's cruel that the air conditioned bus sits there doors closed, driver MIA and more than 15 minutes until the 6:15 take off time.As I struggle to catch my breath I look across the street at the fitness club for all the trendy (rich) hipsters and shake my head - fuck them I mutter.I arrange my bags at my feet and then I feel it.I look down at my arm, right in the bend and I see sweat.ARM BEND SWEAT!!!! WTF!!!I have arm bend sweat, first time I can recall - EVER.It's then that the deniable truth hits me like 2 tons of bricks.I'M FAT!!!!!I've tried to deny it, as all fatties do.These jeans clearly shrunk, this shirt shrunk too.These damn designers want everyone to be anorexic so they cut the clothes waaaaaayyyyy smaller.My family members are assholes, I gain 5 - 10 pounds and they act like I'm fighter jet fat.Fuck them.We say it all to ourselves in a desperate bid to avoid the truth and keep eating cake, ice cream, potato chips, sugary drinks, carb rich everything, candy, did I mention ice cream?But you find out at some point. Maybe you broke a chair, maybe you glanced down at your bloated belly when you couldn't button your "super fat" pants, maybe some kid called you fat to your face, maybe you sweat in new places that you realize didn't exist two years ago. At some point there will be an incident and you will realize YOU ARE FAT!!!The arm bend sweat was my incident.Now I'm left to wonder how and when it happened.I've decided to blog my experience to reclaim my cuteness.Stay tuned :)